"No More"

 

Life is a trial for everyone. I know I've been through it hell I'm still going through that trial when you ask yourself "am I good enough," "am I smart enough," "does that person like me , or is it all a façade." It takes all the strength in the world for my mind to tell my body to get up in the morning, and that it will all be ok. I go through those pains because I have anxiety, depression, semi bi-polar, I have mood swings, and I had a bad childhood. I was never able to speak my mind because it made me scared shitless of what people would say if I did. When I hear the whispers they come at me at night, were they talking about me I will never know the truth. I take a pill every night so I don't feel the pain, and I'm ok with that. If that is what it takes to make anyone just a little bit better do it. Then there is the question I ask myself all the time. Do people have it worse than me? And the answer is yes they do. Celebrities are always in the spotlight getting ridiculed for every last thing they do. You cant even lick a donut because of a damn dare (and we all know if someone dares you to do it you have to do it no questions asked!) or the whole world comes down on you. Demi Lovato spent years making a album of self encouragement and instead of letting her fans enjoy it, as soon as you go on twitter you see people making fun of it. I can see why she made the album 'Confident' now the world is a fucked up place and you have to come back it with something much stronger Love, bravery, courage. Lady Gaga had to hide her face in public because of her anxieties and told us why she did it. But no the world still hindered and posted on social media sites how she should stop with the costumes. Now she is barely started to show us who she truly is. Because our own costumes come down eventually when we feel it is time, and we find the courage to say "NO MORE." Celebrities are strong, after all that ridicule and hate they still get up in the morning and do what they have to do! They don't give up no matter the odds. So why cant I be as brave as they are. The answer is because we are not them, we are our own human being, with our own feelings, our own ideas, and creativity. Yeah I love those artists and want to be like them, but take what they teach you and forge it into something new. I am just starting to become who I truly am, and who I want to become. Yeah I still am so scared to get up and go to class, but I would feel much worse if I would stay in bed all day. And if I can do it you can too. Most people feel the same way you do they have fear in their hearts that they try to conceal. And then their are people who only wake up to put you down. Show everyone everyday that you are bigger and stronger then the hate, and cruelty they give you, take that and turn it into something positive. Everyone goes through life with hardships, even the bullies don't let that defeat you as a person learn how to say "NO MORE."